Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Guilt

Are you a guilty-type person? I think I've figured out I probably feel guilty about 20 or 30 times a day.

I feel guilty when...
  • I realize I'm two days behind on my devos
  • I use a plastic bag
  • I throw away a plastic bag because it's broken (now i recycle those, too!)
  • I complain about being broke when I'm making almost double what I made a year ago
  • I leave my cat to go housesit
  • I don't go to the gym even though I'm paying for it
  • I drive my SUV to the store to buy one item on the list that I forgot (I should be organizing my shopping trips to conserve gas and energy- that's the environmentally friendly way, you know!)
  • I'm late to church... or a dinner... or whatever I'm late to.
  • I fall behind on grading... or planning... or anything related to my students'
just to name a few...

I know guilt can be both good and bad. It makes you aware of the ways you fall short, but I also know that this constant berating of myself isn't healthy. Can any of you perfectionists relate to this???

People always say that you don't know guilt until you're a mother. I'm not yet and I still seem to fight guilt at every turn! I must be doomed...

~hh

p.s. I'm actually not in a bad state right now. I'm pretty pleased with my life. It's just as I've been working on letting go of the perfect and working towards the acceptance of myself- faults and all, I've also become aware of the large amount of guilt I pile on myself!

1 comment:

Recyclican said...

I have a variation of guiltitis; I find myself feeling absolutely rotten whenever I let someone down. Those exact words "you let me down" really hit hard.

I have found it to be a particular problem in the work place; as I more often than not will attract the sort of folks that love to pawn off their work on to "can't say no" people like myself.

On a side note - if you want to be "extra green" when grocery shopping, just offer to swing by and pick a friend up that needs groceries too. You 'double' the mileage by adding the extra person (and keeping less car off the street); and the added bonus of spending time with a friend!

Also if you bring your own reusable bags you won't have to feel guilty about disposable bags :P